*Luv mE nO MorE*

This morning I am twisted. I couldn't sleep last night because I was betrayed. The past few weeks have been frustrating to my psyche and I find myself falling into a deep depression laced with anxiety. Everyday I find myself battling with the demons of mistrust and anger. They embrue my daily decisions and guide my unrighteous ways.
Last night i squirmed and panicked in my sheets because a guy called another woman (girl or what-have-you) a word that made me want to punch his face off. When I found this out, i began to tremble for the simple fact that this exact situation reminded me of one I dealt with in the spring of last year. Although the dialogue was somewhat different, the circumstance last year had the same story line: a young man and the other woman. When I caught whiff of this yesterday my insides went into complete hysterics!
For about 7 minutes I sat in a rut and came to the conclusion that I don't even care. Yes, I care about the guy and yes, up until then we had something nice going on BUT what has already been a doubtful issue for me to deal with (trusting young men) has turned into me no longer wanting us to be together. It does seem harsh but I no longer have full trust in what this person says and the love I have for him continues but somewhere along the way it got smeared.